short my ears&short my eyes

this is my feeling for this few days always keep thinking of it , when i know that i gana take over NPCC as a vice-chairwomen and NIC but what i heard from syafiq and sianli is if i take over sec2s they wont come for training and will quit CCA !! they don like me because i strict but if i not like that how i can take over them and train them to be good cadet and to be good NCO in future !! all the thing that i do is for their own good de but they don wan it ... what they ac-pact from me is to let them slack which i not gana let them do that !! if just only this they cannot take it .. NCO course how can they take it !! i don wan them to suffer during NCO course that why i plan to train them now !!! but end up what i get is the word " HATE" ... feel damn stress !! and feel tired but i not gana let it go easily .. I PROMISE!!

today got science & maths common test !!! feel damn stress .. the science paper damn suck!!! i think i will fail =( the teacher think we wad sia ... give us 35 min to do but got so many questions 9 pager for us to do !! i leave 2 questions that never do feel damn regrade ... before the test is science lesson but the teacher never come and reviews for us not like maths teacher .. i can say that the science teacher are SUCK! ... go back JC and teach better la ... i think at JC also don wan him that's why he come NORTHLAND ... =( DIE DIE I GANA DIE !! if he will take me for science till sec4 i think every year i will fail my science !!

today school going well ... whole day laugh like hell !! after school i came back home and wait for my mum to sent me go see doctor (face doctor) but i keep waiting for her till 3+ ..till i really cannot wait anymore than i went off on my own .. today the handsome doctor not in so i need to see the women doctor sad=( ... after i see doctor i take bus to 1 Thailand shop to help my mum by something ... on the way to thee shop i saw izzat and he cover his face like don wan me to see him but i have to say sry to him my eyes very sharp de ... i can see him !! hahaa... when i reach the shop i was messaging with jamaliah and than i was receive 1 message from my ex (Weijie ) he told me that he has sprint his left leg and the caring feeling is come back again ,i was so sock and faster reply his message back ... "how come ?" than he reply me back " he was playing basketball with his friends than sprint till his leg "... i was damn worried about him than he reply me with this sentence"Aiyo , i also so big le. will take care of myself de =)" after this message make me feel that i really KPO about him , than suddenly we starting talking about the past ... i ask him last time i really make him stress is it? than he say yeah ... and i was ask him back what i do make him so stress till we break than he say he aready forget is aready long time ago ... but for me from the time that we both break i feel like is just yesterday only ... it's seem so different feeling ... everytime you give me the =) it's the real from ur heart or not ?! ... sometime i feel like asking but i not dare to know the real answer from you !!
that 's all for today post !!
night and sweet dream !!
thanks jamaliah , shermaine , sean, annice, angela and jeslyn for make me smile everyday !!
i love you all !!

today went to school with no mood , no mood to do anything . i feel damn sad because i lost my wallet and hand phone yesterday but lucky the cleaner keep the phone and give to office .. now i get back my phone and i hope that i will get my wallet back because is my last birthday gift that i get from my mum ... i feel damn sad for it !! =( i really don know what to do so i can get it back . got one of teacher ask me go report so the teacher will help me to find and i go report from morning i wait but still no news from the teacher ... after school went for meeting ... need to wait for syafiq and sianli so long than annice , jamaliah , jeslyn , jecky and angela company me wait for them ..but angela went of first because she need to go for her training .. today when i saw annice , jamaliah and jeslyn laugh i feel damn happy i like to see when they laugh ... when i saw they laugh make me feel more less of stress and make me never think of everythings that make me sad and stess... i very great that i have friends like them =) thanks all of you to trying to make me smile everyday !!! i love you all !!

today school quite ok ... after school when to NorthPoint to do EBS project with my teacher and my group members damn fun !! but need to rush come back for training ..when i change my attired i was put my hand phone and my LV wallet with my bag than i go change my attired ... when i change finish i leave the toilet for my training ... after training i find out that my hand phone and my LV wallet lost i damn panic ... my sir ,Mdm and my NPCC friends help me to find but still cannot find it ... but when i call to my phone it still ringing than they said that mean my phone still on and maybe got people give to office , than they told me to go ask office tomorrow morning i hope that i will be there !!! because my wallet is my mum give me as my birthday present ... i just know that i cannot live with out phone !!! =( ... i feel damn strange with out phone .. usually i will hold my phone every where because i must SMS chat with my friends but now don have how can i span my night with out phone !!!
today i know my position in NPCC ... i was vice chairwomen and NIC of sec1 quite happy about it !! but still sad for my phone and wallet !!! if my mum know i think she will be very sad because i lost the wallet that she was given me as birthday present ... i have to say sorry to my mum ~ T.T wan to cry even wallet and hand phone i also cannot take care of it !! how i gona take care of my family in the future sia !! =(
end of the post for today !! night and sweet dream all !! =(

Actually in the morning i very good mood but when i saw someone and get scolded from VP my day started with damn moody ... today all my smile is just face smile i not say it out because i don want all my friends sad and worried about me ... i really cannot take it from you (i think you all know who) ... can you don show me your temple ?! because i don wan to show you my temple too !! i don wan to lost friends because of my temple but if u still continue like this i think i much do something about it already ... 1day u will lost friends and not even him will leave you because of your attitude please change be it be come late !!!

today damn sad ... once i step out of my house in the morning i already saw the couple at the bus stop ... on the way to school saw another couple again than i look at beside me nobody feel sad sad but is ok because i still got my great friends like Annice , Angela , Jamaliah , Jeslyn, Shermaine , Sean ... thanks Jamaliah and Annice for the chocolate ... even i not eat it but i feel so touche ... thanks~ a lot u all make me start my day with good mood even something happen in our group i still happy to have friends like you all ...
I LOVE YOU ALL !!! THANK~

good afternoon reader!! yesterday morning school goes quite well all my friends make me quite happy , they talk a lot of jok so i quite happy .. thanks to jamaliah , shermaine, sean , jeslyn,and all of my classmate !! evening i went to Sambawang to have dinner with my cousins they all .. but before i went there is a raining cat and dog (heavy rain) i need to wait for so long, so i can go there !! on the way to bus stop when i walk there so many people looking at me so i turn and ask my cousin "it's my face got something?" than my consin say"no! just think that they looking at us because we are pretty can already ..." hahaa.. i like what my consin say !!! ... that's end for yesterday post!
today nothing much to post i stay at home whole day !! play internet eat than sleep !! hahaa... my life so bored today!! =)